tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6587253652320236905.post8498811488358259813..comments2010-02-13T23:56:25.120-08:00Comments on All about Ryan...and a little about me...: I dont even exist anymore...RyansMommyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08145143713920402790noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6587253652320236905.post-60496699340386243392009-05-04T08:12:00.000-07:002009-05-04T08:12:00.000-07:00Dear Ryan's Mommy,
I found your blog on the messa...Dear Ryan's Mommy,<br /><br />I found your blog on the message board. I just read through your posts. I am SO sorry that Ryan isn't here in your arms, or still safely growing in your womb. I'm not great at calculating, but if I'm not mistaken, your due date has not arrived yet.<br /><br />Everything you've written rings true to me. It has been a little longer for me since Grady died (Nov. 2008). I have seen brighter days here and there, but I have found that I bounce around the stages of grief. It would be nice if we could complete one stage, check it off and then move to the next. It is very frustrating for me that I feel two steps ahead and then fall three steps behind. You are very fortunate to have the group that you mentioned to share face-to-face with others who've had similar losses.<br /><br />I'm not going to spout off advice here, but please know that you're not alone. I have found a great group of supportive people here in the blog world. I feel awful for feeling that way, but there's something about feeling like you're not the only one.... Be patient with yourself, allow yourself to feel whatever you feel as it comes. I'm still working on this daily. <br /><br />I hope you can use this blog as an outlet for yourself and share it as freely as you wish. I have found that people will read my blog and reach out after reading my posts. It's nice that I don't have to constantly repeat myself and/or answer the question, "how are you?" because the answer I give isn't always the truth!<br /><br />Ryan is a beautiful baby boy. I'm so sorry and my heart aches for you..... Hang in there~<br /><br />Love,<br />TonyaTonyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01573072091399987210noreply@blogger.com